January 2011
21 posts
from last winter
i want to do something. something crazy, maybe. like dye my hair blue or cut it all off or go to the middle of the city and scream.
but it’s all been done before. so if i do it, it wouldn’t matter at all.
i’ve lost so much that used to make me me. i don’t take photos that i like (i don’t take photos at all), i don’t go on runs or hikes or even outside, i...
“I want to be important. By being different. And these girls are all the same.”
– Sylvia Plath
watch this
my favorite song right now
Growing Pains
your heart is a bell,
tolling time
away, away: gone forever.
forever.
there it is again
and you cannot catch
the word
on your lips
until it is
lost
with time again.
(30 second poem i wrote in december)
2011
2010 in music:
now that 2010 is over and i leave in 52 days to go live without internet with 48 kids that i know nothing about, i feel like i should take the time to write more while still in california. i’ll try to post more (partly because sam wants me to). here we go. happy 2011.
December 2010
1 post
things i miss
not doing my homework
photography
friends that i never see
video chat
running
having time
having fun
November 2010
1 post
i have nowhere to go right now
i am so absolutely miserable and alone. i do not want to wake up tomorrow and have to face school. i feel so petty and stupid right now. there is actually no one who i can quite tell this to, so i’ll say it here. i have nowhere to go. i feel like something’s been taken from me and i can’t decide what.
the only thing keeping me alive is the fact that i am leaving in 17 weeks.
...
September 2010
0 posts
reasons why this summer was incredible:
driving through the back roads of vermont and getting lost in the most beautiful places
the cute little mom and pop pie store
driving up to cape cod
how the air on the east coast makes my hair curly(er)
having no internet
biking to work every morning and being the only person on the road
quiet days at the pond
giant blueberry pancakes with fresh berries
walking to town
being the only one...
August 2010
3 posts
memories from my east coast summer. i wasn’t ready to leave, but i was ready to come home.
July 2010
4 posts
another
i just developed three rolls of film (all of clara). i will upload more soon.
these are old and i have more of them coming later.
i am on cape cod and i have limited internet access. i will upload every week or two. (i need to find somewhere to develop my film.)
June 2010
23 posts
test shots from weekends ago. I PROMISE I AM TURNING IN THE FILM TOMORROW TO GET DEVELOPED! (yes, my friends are beautiful)
i am dying slowly
fuck math finals.
(how lady-like)
okay
once mo reads his email, two and a half people will know.